Saturday, January 28, 2006

Calm like a bomb.

Days and nights are spent in a torrent of emotion. Up and down goes the rollercoaster, up and down. Between blinding hate and blissful euphoria. I feel like I should kick half the world in the teeth. That I'm angry enough to tear, and to crush and to rip until there's nothing more of all this piece of crap. I've inherited this schizophrenia - I'm sure of it. I am also sure that if I manipulate myself well enough, it will serve me excellently. I'm certain that in the end, things will be different. Not can, but will. If I work hard enough, and steer myself well enough.

If there is one thing that is my enemy it is calcification in my habits. That I so easily get sucked into something sub-par, or something that stimulates me at times but mostly just kills the creative nerve. I get so agitated when she doesn't really seem to value the same things I do.

Anyway, three hours of work per day. It's pathetic, I know. But three hours of work is a start. From there I can move on to a higher standard. If I don't study carefully and with discipline, I'll never get anywhere.

Hasta la victoria siempre!

Thursday, January 26, 2006

Energy and love.

Lots of work these days. Lots of energy, too. I come home all ridden with energy and sit down to work - by my fashion. I wish I had more to do, or rather, something more "firm" as it was. I wished I was really employed, to be specific. But anyhow, the theories and the studying is going excellently. I am making a good deal of progress, and in that I am terribly happy. I just miss Melanie, and I am happy every day when I go to bed - because it's another day closer to her. She's perfect, she really is. Everything I ever wanted or needed, all rolled into one. She complements me, and we are one when things are at it's best. If only we could be together sooner! But I am not so sad right now, I am glad that we can feel the bond still, and that my longing for her is so acute.

Saturday, January 21, 2006

Democracy, the military and the face of a liberal

"I hate soldiers. I hate to see a man with a bayonet fixed on his rifle, who can order me off the street. I hate to belong to an organization that is proud of obeying a caste of superior beings, that is proud of killing free ideas, so that it may the more efficiently kill human beings in cold blood. They will tell you that a conscript army is Democratic, because everybody has to serve; but they won’t tell you that military service plants in your blood the germ of blind obedience, of blind irresponsibility, that it produces one class of Commanders in your state and your industries; and accustoms you to do what they tell you even in time of peace.

Here in America we have our chance to construct someday a Democracy, unhampered by the stupid docility of a people who run to salute when the band plays. They are talking now about building up an immense standing army, to combat the Japs, or the Germans, or the Mexicans. I, for one, refuse to join. You ask me how I am going to combat a whole world thirsting for our blood! And I reply, not by creating a counter-thirst for the blood of the Japs, Germans, or Mexicans. There is no such thing as a “moderate army” or an “army of defense.” Once we begin that, Japan, Germany, or Mexico, whichever it is, will begin to build up a defense against us. We will raise them one, and so on. And the logical end of all that is Germany; and the logical end of Germany is, and always will be, War. And you, gentle reader, you will be the first to get shot."- John Reed, 1915. On the question of the World War in Europe. ( http://www.marxists.org/archive/reed/1915/masses01.htm )

And it's true. Our entire society in Sweden bears the vague marks of this remnant of the old monarchical society. Military men have very rarely been sane, and the idea that our rulers were were rulers because of their military might is appalling. Armies always have the effect of creating nationalism, stupidity and conformism. If there is anything the liberals should assault it is this - for what is more along their ideas of conformism than this? Of course, they don't. Though they rarely admit it, their underlying loyalties that they are forced to, or which come naturally to them, are not to the freedom of humanity but in an alliance with what remains from the old world.

Why is this? Well, it's because there seems to be few other tactical options open, perhaps. Many of those who congregate in the so-called high society hold title or used to have land. It is painfully obvious how far the ideas of freedom go when liberals have no problems espousing militarism, royalism and nationalism. There's lot of idle talk about the futility of getting rid of the army, about the idea of having a republic or about 'that it should still be okay to like Sweden'. Again, my partners in arms in many of these questions could be liberals. If they had the guts to stand up to the core of their beliefs. If you truly wish to have freedom we must eradicate all of the artificial, conformist systems that are still held in place. And we must do so effectively. In a few years we could have "saved" you 97 million Swedish crowns in support of the royal family - money that go from the taxes that you so lament. Let me reveal where my loyalties lie: I feel no need whatsoever to maintain a facade that is so grotesque as a monarchy, not even in the dusty cultural heritage that they remain. It is a natural consequence of a democrat to rid themselves of kings and despots of other kinds.

So, let us be republicans and let us democratize the military. Though discipline is necessary, stupifying is not. Or is it so that the liberals fear the lack of support from institutions that carry them on their shoulders...? Are you afraid that the floor will give way if we work against old dogmas? If you are true liberals - you will fearlessly work together with the left. But if you are, as I suspect, burgeoise you will not. And then you must concede yourself to the fact that you are only liberals because it serves your interests. The difference between the liberals and the burgeoise is that the liberal believes himself to be serving freedom. A member of the burgeoise only serves himself and his class by extension.

Sunday, January 15, 2006

For the love of God, please read.

I've realized lately that the more I get annoyed with people the more it has to do with senseless statements that seem completely hollow once you manage to ground them down into where they came from. It's frustrating to see intelligent people hold on to ridiculous ideas, and perhaps even more frustrating when people throw out various statements without anything to back them up whatsoever. If there is anything I hate, it's sheer stupidity. And this qualifies very well.

Of course, for those who know me this has a lot to do with peoples political ideals. And of course, with the left. But it ALSO has to do with these idiotic ideas that come out of the leftist counterculture. I am not sure where we are anymore - if the mass meetings of workers that once took place has instead given way to youngsters in thick mascara and combat boots. I sincerely hope that the main of the leftist movement hasn't become some flittering, fluttering group bent on resisting 'conformism' (as South Park so aptly puts it in their various sketches with the goth kids).

If it has, it deserves the condemnation of American conservatives and Swedish liberals. There is a lot of pie-throwing on both sides of the fence, and most of it has to do with the fact that we, as Karl Popper puts it: 'go looking for more white swans to prove that all swans are white, when we should be searching for a black swan instead'. But this is just related to the fact that a lot of people don't truly investigate and try to learn. There's little challenge in their views, there is little work on them. Instead, people accept what sounds the most plausible and take it at face value.

This goes for all of us. It goes for Christians, Muslims, Buddhists, the political Left and the Right, for the upper and lower classes. If we're ever truly going to get anywhere, we need to become a lot better at critical thinking and examination, and learning how to cope with data. I'm so frustrated by the kind of badly thought through statements that you so often hear about politics and philosophies.

So study, study and study even harder. That's the only thing we can do, it seems. Life is learning.

As a last note, I am working on what I suppose is an epistemological system. It's quite amusing. Perhaps I'll publish it later?
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